Are it going to be like this every day?Lets take it in english to
So much to do, so little time!
Do not really know where I should start. Is it good to feel as I do now? Perhaps not.
Do I hate my friend, love my boyfriend and want to die. It can not be so fucking normal.
True that I love my guy. Without him my world would go under!
Hate my friend to do, no names mentioned but I do it .. just want to kill motherfucker! so fucking disturbed you get on that fucking Sopanen!
Hate my mopped do I. The I want to throw in the nearest ocean!
Anxiety, panic and chaos. My life is like a carousel. One minute is to just go, see how fast it goes, feel buzz through the body, second seconds is that it should stop, that everything will run out, you do not know The buzz through the body, you just want to get off.
Should I stop my carousel and see how it goes or should I continue to go?
I would not, I want to stop it. I do not know The buzz through the body. I want to die.
I do not want to feel like this.
hell, I have been asked many times. "go on anti-depressant?", you want a reply? NO, I do not but I wish I did. It had made my life so much easier. Take a pill and go into my own little world ..
Today was the bed for comfort, it smelled baby and my pillow blen wet of my tears.
Do I need to write this every time I feel crap?
You can still not help.
my writing is just crap.
you are just shit
fuck off!
Now the sun goes down and it's hot in the room. I listen to Para More and sings with the chorus "sunday bloody sunday, sunday bloody sunday, how long ......"
Want to get up, want to put me on the roof and cry, feel the wind caress my cheeks. let go and fly, watch over them I love.
Kiss the baby one last time and just let go, hate to think like this! : '(
Why should I think like this?
No, I'll probably depressed in the summer, when will all walk around with a bikini and be brown, I hide me going in my room, in my own little world ...
The voices laughing at me .... "lost disgusting kid, you are worth nothing, you is not worth anything!"
Stay stron starve on xoxo Claudia
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Do not really know where I should start. Is it good to feel as I do now? Perhaps not.
Do I hate my friend, love my boyfriend and want to die. It can not be so fucking normal.
True that I love my guy. Without him my world would go under!
Hate my friend to do, no names mentioned but I do it .. just want to kill motherfucker! so fucking disturbed you get on that fucking Sopanen!
Hate my mopped do I. The I want to throw in the nearest ocean!
Anxiety, panic and chaos. My life is like a carousel. One minute is to just go, see how fast it goes, feel buzz through the body, second seconds is that it should stop, that everything will run out, you do not know The buzz through the body, you just want to get off.
Should I stop my carousel and see how it goes or should I continue to go?
I would not, I want to stop it. I do not know The buzz through the body. I want to die.
I do not want to feel like this.
hell, I have been asked many times. "go on anti-depressant?", you want a reply? NO, I do not but I wish I did. It had made my life so much easier. Take a pill and go into my own little world ..
Today was the bed for comfort, it smelled baby and my pillow blen wet of my tears.
Do I need to write this every time I feel crap?
You can still not help.
my writing is just crap.
you are just shit
fuck off!
Now the sun goes down and it's hot in the room. I listen to Para More and sings with the chorus "sunday bloody sunday, sunday bloody sunday, how long ......"
Want to get up, want to put me on the roof and cry, feel the wind caress my cheeks. let go and fly, watch over them I love.
Kiss the baby one last time and just let go, hate to think like this! : '(
Why should I think like this?
No, I'll probably depressed in the summer, when will all walk around with a bikini and be brown, I hide me going in my room, in my own little world ...
The voices laughing at me .... "lost disgusting kid, you are worth nothing, you is not worth anything!"
Stay stron starve on xoxo Claudia
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